A Melody

Mon, 30 Jan 2006 00:05:18 GMT

im going to see stef feb. 15-20...i honestly cant wait. im counting down the days.

today was open house and me and britt ate a fucking shitload of the appetizers..they were soo good

me and her have gotten so close this year..by far shes my best friend.

i saw thumbsucker this friday..awesome movie and i want a boyfriend just like lou pucci..he's adorable.

low carb diets are unrealistic and arent working out for me..it makes me want to eat my arm.

fuck naturally skinny people..you've got it easy.

our house is a very very fine house

Wed, 18 Jan 2006 03:07:17 GMT

i have become so in love with this song: Our House by Phantom Planet on the Chumscrubber soundtrack.

another thing i really love is that movie The Chumscrubber even if brittaney thinks its stupid..i think shes stupid.

which leads to the new love of my life Jamie Bell.

so yeah. anyways i wonder..be honest..am i so hideous and fat that i cant get a single boy to like me..i know it sounds gay and desperate but i just want to know what people think when they see me. well whatever im going to grow up and live with my 12 cats and be lonely bitter woman. either that or become a lesbian because i must be on an ugly spell. or i need to stop going to private school where there are girls that are rich pretty and thin. fuck them.

im done ranting and raving because thats all i do on this damn thing.

Thu, 29 Dec 2005 00:15:25 GMT

what a crappy christmas break.

its going by fast i havent done shit. i feel like all i do is eat and sleep and waste my day.

i hate going to my dads house and spending time with liz's family.

i hate being on my period bc it makes me think the worlds going to end over little things.

oh did i mention i loved being blown off.and being called by someone and imediately being put on hold after being told hello.

sometimes not existing is alot easier than existing.

Fri, 09 Dec 2005 02:29:08 GMT

i feel like shit
my left tonsil feels swollen and i cant breath through either of my nostrils

tonight was kinda awkward...i dont really know why it just was.

i get my hair done tomorrow:)

another fucking bad day in the smith home

Tue, 29 Nov 2005 00:53:39 GMT

fucking shitty-ass day.

i don't like:

-people who sympathise for themselves or make it obvious they want people to
-people who think they can crack jokes about me when they have NO room to talk
-control freaks
-feeling like im a burden or an inconvience to others
-when people are talking in a group and then they all look at you at the same time.try to be a little more fucking discrete if you want to talk shit.
-people who make promises but don't know the first thing about keeping them
-people who ask you questions repeatedly
-when people talk about something when you weren't there (but im guilty of it)
-when people try too hard to make conversation..i like silence
-being told im treating someone shitty when they made me feel shitty first
-people who ask whats wrong. if i am in a bad mood that means giving me fucking space.i dont open up easily
-not getting to eat a fucking dinner.

dont be someone your not

Sun, 20 Nov 2005 21:39:24 GMT

i am:

brutely honest
unique in my own way
bipolar
ambitious
a fan of food
a slave to music
immensely self conscience
unrealistic
original
sensitive
envious
artistic
cautious
a wallflower
apprehensive
pessimistic but try to be optimistic
good-humored
curious
appreciative
passionate
a basket case

me.

ITS A GIRL..two of them

Fri, 11 Nov 2005 23:46:39 GMT

so my stepmom had the babies last night...two more sisters. 5 girls total:poor dad.

addies birthday is tomorrow..im stoked..its taking forever to find a gift for her.

the first trimester of school is over and then we have thanksgiving break...this year if going to go by to quickly.

i no longer have feelings for crossed eyed boy..theres too much competition for him and he just definately isnt worth the fight..hes pretty ugly now that i think of it.

its freezing outside which means winters almost here which means christmas is coming soon and i like the feeling of christmas coming..i know that sounds stupid but whenever christmas comes i like to decorate and going shopping for peoples presents.im a loser but i dont really care.

well my dads here and i get to see my baby sisters for the first time.

ps. its weird to think of this: when they are 15 ill be 30..damnnn

Wed, 02 Nov 2005 23:15:41 GMT

what a sucky day..actually suck week

peoples personalities bum me out sometimes

people who talk shit about other people need to get a life or have some some serious self esteem issues and to solve them they talk about other people.i suggest finding a different way to solve them

boys are dumb

dances are dumb

i feel bad for addie bc everyone always gangs up on her..

cape henry girls are mean

i dont see what anyone can see, in anyone else but you.

Mon, 24 Oct 2005 23:56:45 GMT

so today was a pretty good day overall..

I FINALLY GOT MY PERMIT!!!

me and brittaney had the absolute funniest bus ride ever today.i was crying actual tears and everyone was getting mad bc we were laughing so loud.."its about time you woke up" ahaahh britt. me and brittaney discovered that we have something significantly in common..the same bowel problems.

my volleyball team won the conferance and we get a plac. sweet?? anyways 2 more games to go before the season is over.

wednesday no fucking school.. yess

this weekend will be sweet.. friday is battle of the bands and saturday is lauras halloween party..i promise ill talk to redding as long as he goes..he better go.

laguna beach tonight and like alex said that since everything went good today, that means laguna will be EXTRA good.

Fri, 14 Oct 2005 15:19:16 GMT

4-day weekend
i saw In Her Shoes with addie and went out to dinner
then spent the night at her house
we talked about the old days and her BIRTHDAY..it was fun
i dont get to do that that often anymore

woke up at fucking crack of dawn because my volleyball coach is satan.

hopefully doing something fun this weekend.

ps. britt and alex hang out with meee.

im threw with regreting the past. whats done is done.

Sun, 09 Oct 2005 19:36:12 GMT

let me just put this out there:

i might have been a little bitchy and over reacted a little bit, but tell me this:is it really fair for me to wait to find out when you can fit me into your busy schedule? i thought our friendship meant a little more to you than that. so before you come you tell me that im one of the very few you want to hangout with. and once i brought that up as a point of my confusion on why you made other plans saturday, all you could say was 'you have other friends.' all of asudden all these "other friends" became more important than one of your best friends. somehow in my heart i knew this was how it was going to turnout.

it wasnt suppose to be like this. we were suppose to have a great time while you were here just like it use to be. oviously things have changed.

dont make promises you cant keep. im not saying i regret what i said. im sick of always being the one to apologize. why dont you be the bigger man and do it. for once realize you were the one who made the mistake.

by the way dont tell me im being an asshole because for once im having feelings that dont really go the way you want them to.

no fucking school tomorrow.

Mon, 03 Oct 2005 21:38:55 GMT

so today i came home and ran a mile and 1/2.

im on my way to losing 30 lbs. i just got to keep it up.

yippie!

tonight: dinner with some of my girly friends and then watching laguna beach.

I LOVE GIRLS NIGHT OUT!!

one loser cant come because shes got a stinkin job. we've been in a rut lately but it will change i got faith.

today my whole lunch period was dedicated to talking about boyfriends lazy eye. it cracks the shit out of me every time i talk about it.i enjoy my lunch table people.

ps. STEFANI COMES IN 4 DAYS!!

Fri, 30 Sep 2005 02:34:27 GMT

so today was not such a good day. ive been in a bad mood, pretty much. the OC was definately the highlight of my night considering that there is this UNBELIEVEABLE goodlooking guy on the show now. hes my second love. he gets placed right after boyfriend..haha brittaney. i guess you could say my school picture looks like someone vomited all over my face and then stuck me in my left eye (i look like i have a blackeye). soo retakes are being HIGHLY considered right now. NEXT WEEK STEFANI ELISE TOALSON IS COMING!!!!!!and i couldnt be more excited.

my new goal for this year is to lose 30 lbs. i dont want anyone discouraging me. i will achieve my goal.

so i figured out that boyfriend goes crossed eyed sometimes. thats pretty sweet now we both share eye problems together. except mine are so big that it looks like i am suffering from severe shock 24/7. i think i might go through with that eye surgery in december after all. it wouldnt hurt to improve my appearence.

my name is jorge regula.

Sat, 24 Sep 2005 22:15:23 GMT

last night was pretty damn sweet...

our volleyball game was freakin crazy..we won and it was such a good game. i dont even care that i didnt play in it.

went out to dinner with britt and addie, warriors grill. such a good dinner

i got a call from stefani.if she was there that for sure would have made it complete bc then id have all my favorite people all in one place. it fucking sucks not having her here. i miss the shit out of her and i think she thinks i dont.. but trust me i do. she comes in two weeks and im soooo excited words cant even describe it.

anyways.went to blockbuster and rented some movies and bought a shit load of candy. came home and we painted this sweet thing for my new room.. fyi for all you guys who didnt know im moving into my bigass playroom. but we mostly just hungout and talked and talked about boys and all that other girly shit. i think its good to do that every now and then.

we're going to make a band like the moldy peaches and play at freaky friday bc we're sweet like that.

the addie passed out and me and britt watched some of igby goes down.

today we woke up at like 1. i get mad at myself when i sleep in so late. i hate wasting days by sleeping.

we started cleaning the playroom and brought out about 3 bags full of trash and it still looks like we didnt do shit in there. god damn nanas clothes. im putting my family on clean sweep. the messes in my moms house are fucking ridiculous and i hate living in it.

britt left about an hour after addie and now im fucking bored off my ass. im waiting for my neighbor to get home so she can take me somewhere.and what do you know she just called me..weird

peace out

ps. my boyfriend has been missing from school and i dont know where he is..im becoming worried.

Mon, 29 Aug 2005 22:09:59 GMT

umm yeah well today i started school. it was a very long day but i enjoyed getting to see everyone again.volleyball practice was a piece of cake. tomorrow is our first game..its going to be a disaster. but some how i make it through alot of those so, i think ill survive. i have a buttload of homework tonight which sucks cause all i want to do is sleep right now considering the fact i only got like 5 hours and 20 minutes of sleep(me and brittaney figured that out). laguna beaach tonight.im stoked.

i must be going now so i can be a good student and go do my homework so i can get all A's and B's so i can get a car :)

dont leave me a comment to be bitches,i just wanted to write what i was feeling

Thu, 18 Aug 2005 00:12:06 GMT

school starts in two weeks.

you know when you get in those moods where everything is so pointless and you just dont like yourself. you dont like your body. like just looking at yourself in the mirror is a disappointment to you. and you feel like you want to do something about it but just dont have the energy to. and you just dont want to be surrounded by anyone bc in your mind there is no one that can make you feel better. and the littlest things people say can just completely push you off the edge.

well if you dont then sorry..but im in one right now and it sucks bc i dont know what to do with myself.

this sounds really gay so im done. pretty much im in a bad mood and im lost to what its from.

Fri, 12 Aug 2005 20:02:42 GMT

lacrosse camp was alright...i met a girl from laguna beach and was extremely close to jimmy fallon and drew barrymore..be jealous faggots.

today is friday. tomorrow isnt.

Fri, 05 Aug 2005 19:41:45 GMT

im bored as shit and i leave in a couple days to go to my first lacrosse camp...im so hardcore

but whatever i get to see my lovely addie, whom i missed so much and shes my roomate..it will be sweet

and if i have to run at this camp, then im just going to amputate my legs right then and there..its gay to make the goalies run, thats not our job.

peace out

Wed, 03 Aug 2005 23:42:17 GMT

sooo..

i went to flordia for a magnificient week to see my lovely wife aka stefani.
we went and did some mad shopping and saw willy wonka movie which i loved.
one beach trip with cindy was all the beach trips i could take.
i am now the girlfriend of stefanis like 3 year old cousin jackson. hes a pimp
we went to a water park in orlando that was infested with hairy speedo wearing foreigners..believe me, stefani and i did not last long there...bc then we went to like the BEST hotel pool ever. it was gigantic.and quite refreshing..
one of my fondest memories was stefani trying on so many pairs of man pants in the open, flashing her ass at everyone in one of the busiest walmarts id have ever seen, just so we could make jean skirts, that may i say still need some work.
and for the last couple days me and stefani did what we do best...eat and be lazy.
i miss cindy and her weirdass laugh...i never new cindy could be so funny by the way.
but i miss stefani more.she is so cooky and so not afraid to be herself. i love her to death and i miss her ass more than anything.

then when i got back my mom dragged me up to williamsburg the next day to spend one night in a hotel with a water park in it..it was sweet and bridget was fun to have with me..:)

Thu, 21 Jul 2005 17:41:56 GMT

im going to see stefani..and i leave monday :)

be jealous..i get to spend a WHOLE week with that girl....i couldnt be more excited

i miss hanging out with a couple people who i havent got a chance to see in awhile. you all know who you are.

so if you are reading this please call me to hangout asap..like maybe this weekend..ill be at my dads

and if your not sure if its you lets just say shes a very funny girl who i always have tons of fun with and shes now my only friend at school :) and she has a wardrobe to be jealous of.i love her to death even though she tends to make fun of my stupidness.

what the fuck

Fri, 15 Jul 2005 11:47:13 GMT

health sucks
i am soo fucking tired and right now all i want to do is sleep
i am stuck with a whole bunch of immature, gay 9th graders and its driving me crazy
i have no friends in the class either which really sucks
okay well im going to stop bitching now cause its class time for me.yay

ah what a week its been :)

Sun, 10 Jul 2005 22:45:45 GMT

stefani came in from florida on thursday..and lucky me i got to spend the most time with her...be jealous.

thursday we went to the mall and did some mad shopping and saw The Perfect Man..hot guy in the movie(reminds me alot of seth cohen from the OC)and we stayed up to like 2 in the morning trying to find us some fellas on myspace...only me and stefani would do such a gay thing.

friday we tried our hardest to not sleep in till 12 but we didnt want to listen to the alarm clock..we watched unsolved mysteries(best show)and then alex, stef and i went to el azteca(yumm) and were there forever talking shit and what not..i thoroughly enjoy the conversations that go on between the 3 of us..then we browsed the shopping center, went to game stop bc stefani is such a gamer and all..bowling was our last stop. stef gets hit on by a 21 year old...highlight of the night: me kicking alex and stefanis ass in our first game...lowlight of the night:me losing the other two games and them rubbing that in..me and stef watched girl next store...

saturday me and stef tried to layout but it was too god damn hot and neither of us could get wet..i couldnt get my neck wet and she couldnt get her freshly pierced nose wet...i got my hair cut..and before dinner bonnie came by so thats always entertaining..

sunday feel like shit..went out to lunch with dad and stepmom...and did a little shopping for the house..taco night..yess

tomorrow i start health..but since i didnt take it in ninth grade i have to take it this summer..its going to suck but its okay ill get to see my boo addie who i miss dearly bc i havent gotten to see her in forever!
tegan and sara concert tonight..bummed i dont get to go.

peace

fuck summer

Mon, 04 Jul 2005 13:25:47 GMT

i feel like i've been on house arrest for the past couple days...

i have made it a routine now of stay up till about 3:00 watching movies and then wake up inbetween 12-1:00

i am bored out of my mind..everyone i hangout with is either not here or is grounded..it sucks

going to my dads house today for the 4th of July...ill pretty much just be at the beach..im stoked to get

out of the house.

Fri, 01 Jul 2005 20:23:45 GMT

monday:shopping with ashley and shannon

tuesday: jennas birthday; lazer quest with kyle and stefani

wednesday: stefani moved to flordia; jennas birthday dinner at my dads; brittaney came over and we hungout with kyle

thursday: mexican food for lunch; worked at the SPCA; emma spent the night

friday: breakfest with the breakfest club (beth,ashley,shannon,jamie,emma,me) at beckets; i just recently burned 3 cds for myself from ashleys computer

i miss stefani terribly...im getting a plane ticket and im going to see her:)

boredness can result to these crappy things

Sat, 25 Jun 2005 16:26:09 GMT

-Basics-
Your name: Kaelyn
Age: 15
Grade: 10
Hair color:blonde
Eye color: blue
Height: 5'4
Town you live in: virginia beach
Name of your school: Cape Henry
Pets: 3 dogs,2 cats
-Favorites-
Song: too many
Band: too many
CD: too many
Movie: united states of leland,hitch,etc.
Animal: dog?
Food: any food.
Non-alcoholic drink: root beer and water
Day of the week: friday
Season: summer
TV show: that 70s show & the OC
-Your Friends-
Who's the loudest? emma and liza
Shyest? bridget(if she doesnt know you)
Weirdest? stefani
Funniest? stef and britt
Most layed-back? britt
Meanest? alex and stef together really put me down
Nicest? addie
Smartest? britt and addie
Biggest stoner? dunker
Tallest? henri
About how many friends do you have? no more than 10
Who is your best friend? bridget/addie/stef/britt/dunker
-Love-
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend? no
If so, what's their name? no
Are you single? yea
Do you like anyone? luke(bonnies beach bikes)
Ever been in love? other than with adam brody and luke from work..than no
Do you believe in love at first sight? yeah
Have you ever been kissed? yes
If so, what was your first kiss like? dont really remember
-Have You Ever....-
Smoked? yes
Drank? yes
Done drugs? yes(other than smoked..than no)
Skipped class? yes
Cut your own hair? yes
Been in a car accident? no
Stolen anything? laffee taffee when i was like 4
Killed anything? yes
Broken a bone? no(but i have had my neck cut open)
Sworn at a teacher? not to their face
-Random-
What's your choice way of dying? in my sleep
Do you want to get married? yes
Do you want children? yes
Do you play an instrument? yes(preferably piano)
Do you have a job? did
What's your dream job? either have my own radio station or something to do with fashion
Do you play sports? yes(im a mean lacrosee goaly)
Do you have any bad habits? biting my nails and not brushing my hair during the summer